just came back from mid night movie with ryan and gang. Haven been going out with them for a long time. I was pretty tired throughout the whole show. And i'm quite excited now cause i'm lying on my bed, using my phone to blog. I bet my phone bill gonna explode next month. (I've been using the phone to surf the net =s) hmmm. I dunno why. Suddenly, i miss her. I know i shouldn't have-Cause i'm like totally over it? Well, i think it's probably seeing so many couples in the theatre that is making me feeling lonely. Oh well. Gotta sleep. Have technical level one later! Nights everyone!

rest your throat and drink lotsa of water man!

weather is reallly hot! take care!

hmm why am i missing you ?!

I haven blogged for quite some time.

I was so busy with the hectic trainings in the morning, trying to finish up the never ending and monotonous work in the afternoon and keeping myself awake when giving tuition in the evening.

My life for the past weeks have been the same. It has become a routine . However, I managed to squeeze out 3 days and went for a getaway trip to Bintan. It was my first trip to a resort island. It was fun( especially going on a holiday w.o parents =p). I love the sandy beach over there. The scenery, the water and the sun over at Bintan, not any beaches in Singapore could compare.

Over there, I tried jet skiing. It was fun and i ended up having bruises at my butt area; I was constantly driving against the waves and I landed hard on the jet skii after sending my jet skii up into the air.

Other than that, I tried the massage over there. The main part of the trip there was boozing. The beer was so cheap that I drank almost every night. I need to give my liver and kidneys a rest.

Now I am back to peak training season. 3 trainings a day. 6 days a week. that will make up to a close 18 training sessions a week. How crazy is that. Now it is just the first week of the training and I am already suffering from fatique and aches.

NCC is nearing. I hope I would do well and clock some personal best timing.

I have never been so busy before, except for As and Os period.

Been working since last morning till now. Was rushing through the data which i had to hand in by this morning. Spend my night stayin awake. Im so so tired now.

I have so many tasks on hand. I feeeel so suffocated now.

1) Settle payment for WC ( a few thousands dollars)
2) Settle for Uni application ( another few thousands dollars)
3) Settle June Fest DB
4) Settle my NCAP ( a few hundreds dollars)
5) Settle Technical lvl 1 ( hundred + dollars)


As u can see, i have to settle alot of payments. im feeeel so shit now. Where can i get the money. i dont wanna spend my parent's money. omg. help!!!!!!!

What a lazy Sunday it is today.

I woke up at around 12.30pm. haven had such a loooong sleep for quite sometime. Well had a long day yesterday i would say.

Usual routine : Training in the morning. Breakfast. Go home and change out. Coaching. Dinner.

Had a mini team dinner yesterday at Fish Market at P.S. Had a great night yesterday. Enjoyed the dinner and the company of my team mates. It's really rare to see canoeists as old as J5 to have dinner with the J1s.

Heard this song over the TV. enjoy guys. and Enjoy ur sunday =)

had a long day today.

Morning : For training, we had a 11km time trial. Wasnt too fantastic. Ran a little too slow i think. Wasnt my best although i did try to push myself. Oh well, will do better next time round. It could probably due to previous running training and the timing was affected today. ( did a 1.2k,800m,400 x 3- 100%. 15 x 1 min with 2 min break ). My pair of legs felt sore today.

Rush down to Kallang to catch up with NY's training. Weather is terribly hot today. oh man. im totally burnt. seeing juniors improving, it does gives me a sense of satisfaction. =)

Afternoon-present : Went Catherine's hse for some little get together with the team. Had lunch at her hse. Had some vietnamese kinda of food. hmm quite nice actually. We rented DVDs too. Watched it's a big and girl thing. Kinda nice and it's like HSM kind of thing. Boy and girl were at logger heads. in the end, fall head over heels in love with each other. typical and sweet show.

Finally, Ive managed to move my ass into completing some things which i have procrastinated for damn long.

1) Paying up all my debts.
2) Some progress in getttin certification as a qualifed coach.
3) Uni applications ( still in the process)

Weekend is just 1 more day away. =)) So, I can get to rest soooon. I am reallly tired...

I just found out something. I am in love with sandwiches. LOL. have been having sandwiches for my brunch. *yummy*

Had a pretty long day yesterday.

Reached home around 9 plus after coaching and training at NY. Did the run sets yesterday. It was a killer. I swear. My legs cramped like nobody biz. In the end zhiqiang and I decided to continue today, this morning. We finished our last 800 and 2 x 1.2km run. Timings were QUITE alright i think. but can be better.

I have been running 11km so much ( thanks myself for being SLOW) that the i couldnt bring my legs to run at a faster pace. Secondly, i feeeeel that my upper body is so damn bloooody heavy. Every step requires so much effort. =s=s=s

and now im at work. nothing to do. literally nothing to do.....omg! i wanna go out !

it's another hot and scorching Sunday. Weather has been so freakin hot that it's like an oven even in the night. it's so so so unbearable. other place with the same weather condition, i could remember, is Thailand,Kanchanaburi. The weather there was so hot , when i went over for exercise, that the hills behind our camp caught fire. it's a bush fire, mind you. ok. so much for the weather.

today was the finals of PA paddles. Did k1 and k2. hmm results aren't reaaallly great. I didn check the timing of my k1 but as for k2, bill and i did 1.04. Better than yesterday. However, water feeeling today was quite bad. we were almost sitting with half of our butts out of the seat. It's totally out of alignment. We still managed to pull through tho.

After moving of boats and stuff. Met up with Sze Sian for dinner. felt so bad, makin her waited for me the whole day. =s we went Simpang for dinner. had lots of food. coz both of us were realllly hungry. we left the place and went to the restaurant right beside the one we had for dinner, for some desserts. It's kinda retarded. =p

now, im havin another dinner =s. which i concluded i will not be able to finish it and i will definitely get screw by my mum. =s=s=s=s=s=s=s

Hot Hot Hot.

Super hot sat today. Im totally burnt. but but but. im gettin tanned. and thats good =).

just came back from Chinlay's birthday party. Was relatively fun. Played Wii with my classmates. LOL. Toally full of shit. had tok cock session with them too. Well, it's another gathering =). Anyway, Happy Birthday Chinlay!

Today's race was kinda alright although timings werent really fantastic and werent wad i had expected. Water was super choppy although it's pushin us forward. It's wind that's really crazy. Crosswinds from all sides. Really made the paddling at Bedok realllly hard. First impact of the stroke is always super heavy and hard. Thus. i get lactic build up damn fast.

Anyway, to someone out there. No point complaining about your race. Just shut the hell up and train harder. If not, quit canoein. spend more time with your girl.And,i seriously think that it would be MORE PRODUCTIVE then going down races and get whack. Dun act cooool when you're not even in the league of the race.

It's finals tomorrow. Meetin Sze Sian at Bedok. She's coming down to see the races. oh man. cant wait to see her anw. havent met up with her for so long. I hope tomorrow races will be better.
Better timings.Better water condition. Better mental state.

oh. enjoy this song. =) i had a really weird dream abt her.... anyway. this is one of my faves.

It's finnnnally Friday! Finally get to rest-Dont have to work for the time being.

Had training the morning. did 10km paddling. technical + stroking. Kinda slack. Went DSO with Andrea to continue with her game trial. Played 2 games. lost 1 won 1. i was kinda satisfied with my 2nd game. properly planned strategy to outwit the enemy(real person). That really made my day. hahaha. i felt like a commander while i was planning. ( thinking of contingencies, route of advance, target of opportunities etc etc) all the military knowleges i have acquired during OCS were put into use. =)))))

It's really hard being a commander. U have so many options and decisions to make. Before battle, during battle and after battle. in fact, i was kinda mentally drained after the 2nd game. I had to think real deep in order to predict his movements and his strategies. im glad that most of my assumptions and predictions were correct. =)

Later in the afternoon, met up wif susy,desmond and kah theng. We moved the boats from Macr. to Bedok. Along the way, Susy plugged in a new cd she bought , ConnieTaltod, the British Got Talent girl. Her songs are super duper nice. Susy and I came upon this song which we got hooked since. Will show u guys ltr.

After training and moving of boats in Bedok. Susie and I went to Heartland Mall to get some drinks and had some oyster ommelette. the funniest part of the evening was that Susie was pulled up to stage as a volunteer to perform some stretching exercise conducted by AMORE instructors. Super funny =p.

alright. gotta go and play my Civony and read my book. Ciao. Good luck to those who are racing PA paddles tommorow! =) Nights. Enjoy this song. It's kinda sad if u noe the lyrics and again, it's really apt. hahaha.

It's thursday. It will be weekend soon. Actually it's already weekend for me. took a leave tmr so that i could settle some admin stuff for PA paddles.

Today was kinda slack i guess. Finished Kaiwei's data. Finally, i got it right this time. after 3 weeks of compiling the whole loads of data from the trial =s So..i practically went to work today doing nothing. I read my book the whole day ?

and book is really really interesting. Guys, get urself The Game. it's something u will love and will get u hook. Ive been readin the book the whole day. it's so interesting that, it glued me to it.

anyway, as usual. i dreamt of her last night. ok. out of point.

was listening to my 101 love songs collection.

heard this song which is damn nice. and kinda apt. enjoy.




Just When I Needed You Most

You packed in the morning. I stared out the window. And I struggled for something to say.You left in the rain without closing the door. I didnt stand in your way. Now I miss you more. Than I missed you before. And now where Ill find comfort, God knows. 'cause you left me. Just when I needed you most. Yes, you left me. Just when I needed you most.
Now most every morning.I stare out the window I. think about where you might be. Ive written you letters that Id like to send. If you would just send one to me. 'cause I need you more. Than I needed before. And now where Ill find comfort, God knows.' cause you left me. Just when I needed you most. Yes, you left me. Just when I needed you most. You packed in the morning. I stared out the window. And I struggled for something to say. You left in the rain without closing the doorI didnt stand in your way. Now I love you more.Than I loved you before. And now where Ill find comfort, God knows. 'cause you left me. Just when I needed you most. You left me. Just when I needed you most. Oh, you left me. Just when I needed you most.

It's another day of the week. Another day in the office. Another day like any other day.

had a rather easy peasy training in the morning ( i would say). Did 10km in a K4, trying out different combi. This week's training would be solely team boat training. I love being in the team boat. (kinda slack..). *i bet u guys will agree with me too!* i think it's easier than trainin in a k1.

hahaha. talking abt being in a k4. 3 yrs ago, i was still a junior. forming k4, trying to beat the seniors. ironically, im already a senior now and im forming boat to fight the juniors. how interesting. time realllllly flies. It was the same as 3 yrs ago, how we juniors ( ryan, sam,qiang and I) trying to challenge the senior guys.

Had a good chat with xiaohui ytd. We're talking abt stella. Was it pride that caused the inertia? or is it really really i do like her alot and i do really want her that caused the inertia ? i dunno. i seriously dunno.

if it's meant to be yours , two of our paths will cross again ?

I hope God would just give me an answer and give mesome directions

And i guess i should just wait and see how things go.

ok. I shld be focus on all my upcomin races now. yea ?

1) Local Races

1. PA Paddles
2. NCC
3. June DragonBoat Fest ( dragonboating)
   

2) World Champs @ Canada
3) Asian Champs @ Iran
4) South East Asian Champs @ Putrajaya

Oh yea. Coach is takin part in NCC. He will be taking K2 with another hungarian guy. It is gonna be interesting. Battles of the centuries. Qiang, lets go! our k2! we've one unfinished race, k2 200m!

Currently in the office.

just finished my assigned task. rather easy and simple.

nothing interesting happened yesterday. again was some routinary activities, going to work in the morning, coach in the evening etc.

Life is rather monotonous..

Uni application result shld be out soon. Really hoping to get into NUS this time round. 3 yrs of waiting. I think it is fair enough eh ?

I have been reading books for the past few weeks.The Game, Rules of Love and Mens are Mars , Women are from Venus. They are quite interesting to read-Toking about how men and women think differently, why men do things this way and women the other way etc etc.

Seriously speaking, i still dun understand how girls can like another guy in such a short time. is it infatuation ? is it crush ? or is it really love?

I am so disappointed really. Do i deserve all these treatments? being ditched time and time again ? can't i have someone who is there , genuinely, for me ?

anyhow, i will still dream of her every night. i dunno why;waking up in the middle of the night because i will feel sad and terrible each time i dream of her.

I have been suppressing my feelings for her. I am tryin hard to move on. Really tryin hard. she has moved on with another guy and i dun think it is fair for me to hold back the past....

You Belong With Me

You're on the phone
With your girlfriend
She's upset
She's going off about
Something that you said
She doesn't get your humor
Like I do

I'm in my room
It's a typical tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music
She doesn't like
She'll never know your story
Like I do

But she wears short skirts
I wear t-shirts
She's cheer captain
And i'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day
When you wake up and find
That what you're looking for
Has been here the whole time

If you could see
That i'm the one
Who understands you
Been here all along
So why can't you
See you belong with me
You belong with me.

Walking the streets
With you and your worn out jeans
I can't help thinking
This is how it ought to be
Laughing on a park bench
Thinking to myself
Hey, isn't this easy?

And you've got a smile
That could light up this whole town
I haven't seen it in awhile
Since she brought you down
You say you're fine
I know you better than that
Hey whatchu doing
With a girl like that

She wears high heels
I wear sneakers
She's cheer captain
I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day
When you wake up and find
That what you're looking for
Has been here the whole time

If you could see
That i'm the one
Who understands you
Been here all along
So why can't you
See you belong with me
Standing by and
Waiting at your backdoor
All this time
How could you not know
BabyYou belong with me
You belong with me

Oh, I remember
You driving to my house
In the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh
When you know you're about to cry
And I know your favorite songs
And you tell me about your dreams
Think I know where you belong
Think I know it's with me

Can't you see
That i'm the one
Who understands
Been here all along
So why can't you see?
You belong with me.

Have you ever thought
Just maybe
You belong with me?

had a rather peaceful and relaxing sunday.

woke up in the morning to go market with my mama. bought breakfast for the family and tried to repair my dad's car. The air con broke down. so can u imagine how hot it was ? but i failed la. so gonna leave it to the technician.

met up with susy in the night at Cathay to catch Taken. It's damn nice. OMG! it's a must watch movie! Boys and girls will definitely love it!

well, gonna start changing and prepare for work. It's monday. im so dun feel like going to work.

Decided to start a new blog after long procrastination of almost 2 yrs.

probably will do some quick updates.

1) had a crazy night out with the AC team ( susy,jiayi,jiayin,the twins,kat,dorcas,nick low,chriss and huitong). it was an alcohol fuelled party last nite. played Twisters while we were on alcohol high. and we played the usual starter game, 7-up. lol. And we concluded that, chriss cant count =p.

2) watched the nationals sch. congrats to all winners. see u at the start line this coming June. =)

3) Training coming to an end. 4th week of crazy training programme. I literally died during each training- losing to Weiling is indeed ego-deflating. ran a 20km more than the rest(punishment) and did 1oo more reps of weights. but it's all good. results showed during the time trial.
1000m : 4.09min
500m : 1.51min
200m : 40smin
considering the fact that we are not peaking now, this timings are good enough. met coach's expectation.i think this yr will be a fast year for us.And i can feel the podium finish dream in international races is drawing near.